mindful of Christ - Pain and Anger

I hurt

I am angry

very angry

26 “Be angry, and do not sin” James 1:20

how is this possible???

to be hurt and angry is not sin itself

but what do i do when I am here??

Thank you Thank you
you don't tell me
its no big deal
just let it go
why are you so upset

you don't deny that to be human is at times to be like a wounded animal
deeply wounded
in great pain
thrashing around
(Psalm 73:21-24)

the deep cry for justice
for care
for healing

you do not diminish or dismiss

You see all
You know all

in this
in this very place
I am known
I am seen
I am loved

Genesis 16:13The Message (MSG)

13 She answered God by name, praying to the God who spoke to her, 

“You’re the God who sees me!

“Yes! He saw me; and then I saw him!”

yes here is a woman in a very unjust and hard place 

yet you saw her

you loved her

you sought her out

you cared

you gave her hope and a promise for the future

it was a messy and terrible situation

she was suffering the effects of others choices

But God saw her

God loved her

not for anything she was 

not for anything she did

Because  YOU ARE LOVE

Jesus came to seek and save that which is lost

Oh Lord seek us out in our deep pain and strong anger

we need you

only you can heal, comfort and turn us from the path of wrath and destruction

You are the God who judges righteously

not in our time or way

But you see all

you know all

you put all on Christ

the sins of all

He took on and bore

to the death

there is forgiveness with you 

that you may be wondered at

You want to work in me 

and in this situation/relationship

in ways i could never imagine

if I let you work in me

right here 

right now

in the middle of this hot mess

James 1:20New King James Version (NKJV)

20 for the wrath of man does not produce the righteousness of God.

19-21 Post this at all the intersections, dear friends: Lead with your ears, follow up with your tongue, and let anger straggle along in the rear. God’s righteousness doesn’t grow from human anger. So throw all spoiled virtue and cancerous evil in the garbage. In simple humility, let our gardener, God, landscape you with the Word, making a salvation-garden of your life. 

James 1: 19-21 The Message


Write:
What is hurting?
Where is the pain?

Why am i angry?

what do I want ?
what do I need?

How can I see You who sees me right here and right now?

Yes, Lord, help me to let go of my wrath that will only make things worse
help me to see you suffering to redeem me instead of the sources of my pain and anger
help me to leave all this with you the Righteous Judge
make me your instrument of peace and healing
make me a salvation garden
so others can see you
i love you
Amen

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