Showing posts with label comfort. Show all posts
Showing posts with label comfort. Show all posts

Saturday, February 24, 2018

The Deliverer

Luke 8:26-39 Holman

26 Then they sailed to the region of the Gerasenes,[e] which is opposite Galilee. 27 When He got out on land, a demon-possessed man from the town met Him. For a long time he had worn no clothes and did not stay in a house but in the tombs. 
28 When he saw Jesus, he cried out, fell down before Him, and said in a loud voice, “What do You have to do with me,[f] Jesus, You Son of the Most High God? I beg You, don’t torment me!” 29 For He had commanded the unclean spirit to come out of the man. Many times it had seized him, and though he was guarded, bound by chains and shackles, he would snap the restraints and be driven by the demon into deserted places.


  1. Luke 8:26 Other mss read the Gadarenes
  2. Luke 8:28 Lit What to me and to You
I relate to this man - driven by inner torment
uncontrolled by any external constraint
living in deserted places 
among the dead
no connection to living persons
unable to live and function in community with others

this passage is difficult because it raises so many difficult questions
How did this man come to be in this condition?
Was it something of his own choice?
in our modern era we like to be able to explain things in terms of natural causes and assign problems to some level of human control or blame

This passage forces us to acknowledge there are forces beyond our control and understanding that do intersect with our existence

How? Why?  not sure

it is sanity to acknowledge there are tings beyond my limited understanding
not to make them a scapegoat 
but that their are malevolent forces that I cannot deliver myself from

What exactly is the dividing line between human weakness, frailty, failing
and powerful spiritual influences that bring torment?

I don't know

But Jesus came to this man

the man no one could help
no one control
no one reach 
soothe
calm 
reason with 
comfort 
or redirect

He was completely and utterly alone

driven to torment inside and out 

Oh Lord, 
I don't understand all of the whys or the hows of how I came to this place
but i relate to this man
so full of pain and fear and misery
terrified of even you 
who came with love and deliverance

Only you can help us, Jesus

Only you have both the power and the love to reach the unreachable
the tormented

Please help me to not run away and shut you out in my place of terror
It may be frightening and uncomfortable 
but you come to bring me to peace
you come to set me free

from what is all I know
from the familiar entrapments

Help me to let you in 
to let you work

Do your work of deliverance in me


30 “What is your name?” Jesus asked him.
“Legion,” he said—because many demons had entered him. 31 And they begged Him not to banish them to the abyss.
32 A large herd of pigs was there, feeding on the hillside. The demons begged Him to permit them to enter the pigs, and He gave them permission. 33 The demons came out of the man and entered the pigs, and the herd rushed down the steep bank into the lake and drowned. 34 When the men who tended them saw what had happened, they ran off and reported it in the town and in the countryside. 

35 Then people went out to see what had happened. They came to Jesus and found the man the demons had departed from, sitting at Jesus’ feet, dressed and in his right mind. And they were afraid. 36 Meanwhile, the eyewitnesses reported to them how the demon-possessed man was delivered. 37 Then all the people of the Gerasene region[g] asked Him to leave them, because they were gripped by great fear. So getting into the boat, He returned.

Oh Lord, 
we pray for change
for transformation 
for revival

but when you work your wonderful work
we become more terrified than we were before

because you are amazing 
and we cannot explain or control you

it threatens the fragile realities we try to construct 
to shelter us from what we cannot understand

You came in love 
to this whole region

but only one experiences your great deliverance
only one 
was brought 
to peace
covering 
and a right mind

Oh Lord 
help us to not ask you to leave
when we are frightened out of our wits
by the unknown
by you

You are so gracious
you listened to their request
you left 

Please don't leave me, Jesus

I need you 
and there is no other
like you

38 The man from whom the demons had departed kept begging Him to be with Him. But He sent him away and said, 39 “Go back to your home, and tell all that God has done for you.” And off he went, proclaiming throughout the town all that Jesus had done for him.

Oh, Lord, 
thank you
because you died for us
we never have to be sent away from you

we can always be with you
no matter what our situation 
no matter how we feel
no matter what others may be saying and doing
or how they view us

you have made a way for us to abide in you 
as we are honest with you 
in confessing our sins and our need 
and trusting what you alone have done

Thank you, you just want us to share what you have done
we don't have to convince anyone
or change anyone
just tell the truth
of who we are 
of who you are
of what we know you have done

you are reaching out in love to those around us
even to those who have known us well in our deepest torments

Oh Lord, 
I love you
you are so wonderful
thank you for loving me 
and seeking me out even in my torments
for bringing me to 
sitting at your feed, 
clothed
and in my right mind. 
a mind of worship and gratitude 
to you

Amen

2 Timothy 1:7


For God hath not given us the spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
For God gave us not a spirit of fearfulness; but of power and love and discipline.
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity or cowardice or fear, but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of sound judgment and personal discipline [abilities that result in a calm, well-balanced mind and self-control].

Saturday, January 13, 2018

higher ground

The warnings came

in the night

my phone buzzing incessantly

Heavy rainfall

Flash flood imminent

Get to higher ground



the disturbing reality

you are not safe where you are

where you most feel safe

you are not


where it seems these alerts
are just an annoyance
a disturbance


where all seems okay

where i feel that i can and should rest


i need to move from


from the structure

i have taken refuge in for so long


it cannot hold

it is not strong enough

it will not hold

even the ground itself is not going to remain


it will crumble

and be swept away

get to higher ground


get to higher ground
get to higher ground

where is higher ground?

how do I know what is higher?

what is the way there?

how do I move there?

"When my heart is overwhelmed within me,
lead me to the rock that is higher than I."
Psalm 61:2 KJV

You alone
are that rock
that is higher

You alone are that
firm
unmovable
unchanging
unconquerable
rock

When the storms of life
hit my burn scars

and all gives way at once

into a rushing
moving
torrent
of destuction

that nothing human can withstand

move me
to higher ground

to refuge in you alone


When the raw truth
of human inadequacy
and need is revealed
in a moment

When all I know and depend on
is swept away
in a moment

lead me O Lord
to higher ground in you

You are the very highest
You are the most firm
You are our only rock
that can withstand
and endure

it is so uncomfortable
to stand in my need

in the reality of just how great my need is

to have all illusionary
structures and defences
swept away

to be left standing here
so powerless
so vulnerable

to the ravages of human existence
and to the reality

of my deep need of you

Help me to not run from this place
of deep and abiding reality

I am not higher ground
I cannot make higher ground
others can love and care and support
in such beautiful
and loving and amazing ways
but they cannot be that higher ground
either

for myself
or anyone I love
and so desperately
want to be safe

"When my heart is overwhelmed within me,
lead me to the rock that is higher than I."
Psalm 61:2  KJV

He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High
    will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of Yahweh, “He is my refuge and my fortress;
    my God, in whom I trust.”...

He will cover you with his feathers.
    Under his wings you will take refuge.
    His faithfulness is your shield and rampart.

Psalm 91:1-2, 4

This does not mean I will necessarily be shielded from the ravages and sufferings of human existence
Jesus himself did not refuse the suffering of being human and all that this entails
a Man of Sorrows and acquainted with grief

I believe it does mean
that God himself
Who He Is

That will not change
That He will be with me in whatever it is I will experience

that even when it comes time for me to die
and let go of everything

a time when truly
no one else can help me at all

that you will be there

that you will take me to Yourself

that you will carry me in your bosom

You will bring me home

to Yourself

"When my heart is overwhelmed within me, 
Lead me to the rock, that is higher than I."
Psalm 61;2






Wednesday, January 10, 2018

Jesus is there

"Jesus wept"


John 11The Message (MSG)

The Death of Lazarus

11 1-3 A man was sick, Lazarus of Bethany, the town of Mary and her sister Martha. This was the same Mary who massaged the Lord’s feet with aromatic oils and then wiped them with her hair. It was her brother Lazarus who was sick. So the sisters sent word to Jesus, “Master, the one you love so very much is sick....”

5-7 Jesus loved Martha and her sister and Lazarus, but oddly, when he heard that Lazarus was sick, he stayed on where he was for two more days. After the two days, he said to his disciples, “Let’s go back to Judea.”
They said, “Rabbi, you can’t do that. The Jews are out to kill you, and you’re going back?”
9-10 Jesus replied, “Are there not twelve hours of daylight? Anyone who walks in daylight doesn’t stumble because there’s plenty of light from the sun. Walking at night, he might very well stumble because he can’t see where he’s going.”
11 He said these things, and then announced, “Our friend Lazarus has fallen asleep. I’m going to wake him up.”
12-13 The disciples said, “Master, if he’s gone to sleep, he’ll get a good rest and wake up feeling fine.” Jesus was talking about death, while his disciples thought he was talking about taking a nap.
14-15 Then Jesus became explicit: “Lazarus died. And I am glad for your sakes that I wasn’t there. You’re about to be given new grounds for believing. Now let’s go to him.”
16 That’s when Thomas, the one called the Twin, said to his companions, “Come along. We might as well die with him.”
17-20 When Jesus finally got there, he found Lazarus already four days dead. Bethany was near Jerusalem, only a couple of miles away, and many of the Jews were visiting Martha and Mary, sympathizing with them over their brother. Martha heard Jesus was coming and went out to meet him. Mary remained in the house.
21-22 Martha said, “Master, if you’d been here, my brother wouldn’t have died. Even now, I know that whatever you ask God he will give you.”
23 Jesus said, “Your brother will be raised up.”
24 Martha replied, “I know that he will be raised up in the resurrection at the end of time.”
25-26 “You don’t have to wait for the End. I am, right now, Resurrection and Life. The one who believes in me, even though he or she dies, will live. And everyone who lives believing in me does not ultimately die at all. Do you believe this?”
27 “Yes, Master. All along I have believed that you are the Messiah, the Son of God who comes into the world.”
28 After saying this, she went to her sister Mary and whispered in her ear, “The Teacher is here and is asking for you.”
29-32 The moment she heard that, she jumped up and ran out to him. Jesus had not yet entered the town but was still at the place where Martha had met him. When her sympathizing Jewish friends saw Mary run off, they followed her, thinking she was on her way to the tomb to weep there. Mary came to where Jesus was waiting and fell at his feet, saying, “Master, if only you had been here, my brother would not have died.”
33-34 When Jesus saw her sobbing and the Jews with her sobbing, a deep anger welled up within him. He said, “Where did you put him?”
34-35 “Master, come and see,” they said. Now Jesus wept.
36 The Jews said, “Look how deeply he loved him.”
37 Others among them said, “Well, if he loved him so much, why didn’t he do something to keep him from dying? After all, he opened the eyes of a blind man.”
38-39 Then Jesus, the anger again welling up within him, arrived at the tomb. It was a simple cave in the hillside with a slab of stone laid against it. Jesus said, “Remove the stone.”
The sister of the dead man, Martha, said, “Master, by this time there’s a stench. He’s been dead four days!”
40 Jesus looked her in the eye. “Didn’t I tell you that if you believed, you would see the glory of God?”
41-42 Then, to the others, “Go ahead, take away the stone.”
They removed the stone. Jesus raised his eyes to heaven and prayed, “Father, I’m grateful that you have listened to me. I know you always do listen, but on account of this crowd standing here I’ve spoken so that they might believe that you sent me.”
43-44 Then he shouted, “Lazarus, come out!” And he came out, a cadaver, wrapped from head to toe, and with a kerchief over his face.
Jesus told them, “Unwrap him and let him loose.”
45 That was a turnaround for many of the Jews who were with Mary. They saw what Jesus did, and believed in him. 

This passage of scripture resonates deeply 
Jesus is all powerful and all knowing and all love
He cares deeply for us and feels all our pain
our suffering
our devastation
our grief and loss

but he does not do what we desperately cry out to him to do

He who could have saved
could have prevented this
did not

how to reconcile believing in him

with horrible, senseless, seemingly random suffering and tragedy
that he has the power and control to change
or to prevent

O Lord, I know you are good
you love all
you want to heal, restore, change, transform

thank you, we can come to you with our burning and painful questions
with our anger and devastation
our shattering grief and loss

We are so vulnerable and powerless

But you are near to the broken hearted
to those who are crushed
and devastaed

What you want to give us is belief in you
this seems like nothing when we are in such pain 

But you are the one we need the deepest and the most
No one else can come into the deepest soul like you
There is no real comfort or hope apart from you
Help us to not shut you our in our anger and pain
Help us to not blindly run away from you our only true help

Seek us
pour out your spirit on us
help us to come to you and open all of our hearts to you

to let the sealing stone be rolled away

Whatever is happening around us
You are inviting us to come to you
to know you in the midst 
of even this

"When my heart is overwhelmed within me,
lead me to the rock that is higher than i."
Psalm 61:2
You, Lord are higher than I
You, Lord are that rock
that is higher, stronger, than anything I can know and understand
Bring me to you
even in this

Thank you, you came into the midst of our suffering and humanity
You are the man of sorrows and acquainted with grief

Isaiah 53International Children’s Bible (ICB)

53 Who would have believed what we heard?
    Who saw the Lord’s power in this?
He grew up like a small plant before the Lord.
    He was like a root growing in a dry land.
He had no special beauty or form to make us notice him.
    There was nothing in his appearance to make us desire him.
He was hated and rejected by people.
    He had much pain and suffering.

People would not even look at him.
    He was hated, and we didn’t even notice him.
But he took our suffering on him
    and felt our pain for us.
We saw his suffering.
    We thought God was punishing him.
But he was wounded for the wrong things we did.
    He was crushed for the evil things we did.
The punishment, which made us well, was given to him.
    And we are healed because of his wounds.

We all have wandered away like sheep.
    Each of us has gone his own way.
But the Lord has put on him the punishment
    for all the evil we have done.
He was beaten down and punished.
    But he didn’t say a word.
He was like a lamb being led to be killed.
    He was quiet, as a sheep is quiet while its wool is being cut.
    He never opened his mouth.
Men took him away roughly and unfairly.
    He died without children to continue his family.
He was put to death.
    He was punished for the sins of my people.
He was buried with wicked men.
    He died with the rich.
He had done nothing wrong.
    He had never lied.
10 But it was the Lord who decided
    to crush him and make him suffer.
    So the Lord made his life a penalty offering.
But he will see his descendants and live a long life.
    He will complete the things the Lord wants him to do.
11 He will suffer many things in his soul.
    But then he will see life and be satisfied.
My good servant will make many people right with God.
    He carried away their sins.
12 For this reason I will make him a great man among people.
    He will share in all things with those who are strong.
He willingly gave his life.
    He was treated like a criminal.
But he carried away the sins of many people.
    And he asked forgiveness for those who sinned.

The High Priest Who Cried Out in Pain

14-16 Now that we know what we have—Jesus, this great High Priest with ready access to God—let’s not let it slip through our fingers. We don’t have a priest who is out of touch with our reality. He’s been through weakness and testing, experienced it all—all but the sin. So let’s walk right up to him and get what he is so ready to give. Take the mercy, accept the help.
Hebrews 4:14-16 The Message