The Divine Physical Therapist

soft tissue is where the stress and pain get absorbed
woven into muscle and making movement painful and restricted

joints swollen and stiff with the pain of a lifetime stored away in small batches
but creating a large pool
a reservoir of suffering
an inflamed and painful knot of grief, loss, disappointment, hurt, betrayal, sadness

it is not theoretical or abstract but concrete physical,  real and experiential
but so is your healing process

You come to touch the painfully twisted and stiff spots

Exactly where I am afraid  you will touch
where I don't want anyone to touch

I want to cocoon it away
wrap it in layer upon layer of soft cotton
insulate it and protect it under a hard shell

but you want to heal
you come to touch and to move

only 16 hours after having a 4-5 inch incision made across my lower abdomen to remove something dangerous lurking within, the nurse came
to tell me to move
to sit up in the bed
to try and get out of bed and walk around

I looked at her incredulous and non-comprehending
What?
Really?
You cannot be serious!
No way!

but as she kindly and patiently explained
if I did not move
was not willing to experience the pain of trying to move
I would not heal
correctly anyway
there would be permanent loss
that could not be regained
for any amount of movement or effort later

I accepted the message and could put my heart into trying to do what I could and not fight or resist it

Oh Lord,
how you earnestly long to untwist, straighten, strengthen, transform heal and change
I want this to happen in my safe cocoon
hidden away from all sense of vulnerability, threat
from all experience of more pain

but this is not your way

you have divinely designed and engineered my circumstances
to touch,
press on,
and attempt to stretch out those very areas that are the neediest in me
oh, how it hurts
I fell so exposed and vulnerable
like a snail without its shell on
that cannot run away
or protect itself

but as the man with the withered hand
it was in the stretching that you healed him

Couldn't I please see and feel healed first??? please?

no, the stretching to love when I most want to withdraw
this is the way you are pulling out those over-tight, restricted muscles
to release their inner tension and stored stress
that which keeps pulling joints and connections out of alignment

to regain elasticity and freedom and range of movement
to be enable to move and respond to your leading
and not be so restricted and narrowed in my self

Oh Lord, praise you
you are so amazing and wonderful
you know exactly what I need
you are here in the messy
in the complicated and complex details
I may never see exactly how or why
or even part
until I stand before you one day, all this behind

but I see you
you, the Divine Healer
you,  the Divine Physical Therapist

touching, identifying what is needed
where the need is greatest
applying pressure
pulling out
releasing
healing
strengthening

bringing back to proper alignment
and intended usage and purpose
you the wonderful healer
the Great Physician
The Great Physical Thrapist

I love you Lord

the Great Physician by G. Campbell Morgan
http://www.amazon.com/The-Great-Physician-Campbell-Morgan/dp/0800704851