Tuesday, November 21, 2017

Talking to God out of the depths

Psalm 130The Message (MSG)

A Pilgrim Song

130 1-2 Help, God—the bottom has fallen out of my life!
    Master, hear my cry for help!
Listen hard! Open your ears!
    Listen to my cries for mercy.
3-4 If you, God, kept records on wrongdoings,
    who would stand a chance?
As it turns out, forgiveness is your habit,
    and that’s why you’re worshiped.
5-6 I pray to God—my life a prayer—
    and wait for what he’ll say and do.
My life’s on the line before God, my Lord,
    waiting and watching till morning,
    waiting and watching till morning.
7-8 O Israel, wait and watch for God—
    with God’s arrival comes love,
    with God’s arrival comes generous redemption.
No doubt about it—he’ll redeem Israel,
    buy back Israel from captivity to sin.
The Message (MSG)
Copyright © 1993, 1994, 1995, 1996, 2000, 2001, 2002 by Eugene H. Peterson

"Out of the depths I cry unto you..." Psalm 130:1 KJV

This is the cry of the psalmist and it echoes the cry of our my own heart
God does not ask me to pray politely or even properly
He welcomes the deep cry of my heart
He does not tell me to try to be strong 
to keep my emotions at bay

He welcomes me 
He invites me to come 
and be known and loved 
when I am at my lowest and worst

"God is near to all who call upon him
to all who call upon him in truth" Psalm 145:18 NIV


Truth

God is true 
to come to him 
I must come in truth
I do not need to try to cover up or hide what is not hidden to Him
He already knows the truth
about me
the depth of my need
what I do wrong
what I think and feel that is not loving or kind or positive
this is all painfully clear to him
when I am willing to be honest about these things as well
He is there

Forgiveness

If you, God, kept records on wrongdoings,
    who would stand a chance?
As it turns out, forgiveness is your habit,
    and that’s why you’re worshiped. Psalm 130:3-4
God is both ruthlessly honest 
and kind, understanding and merciful and forgiving
He is not like anyone else I know

I do not need to pretend I am anything other than who I truly am

Knowing the depth of my great need
He sent His only and greatly beloved Son, Jesus Christ
to make a way for me to know and be known by him
to have a relationship with Him that is not based on anything I am or could do
A relationship based entirely upon who He is and what he has already done

That’s what Christ did definitively: suffered because of others’ sins, the Righteous One for the unrighteous ones. He went through it all—was put to death and then made alive—to bring us to God.  I Peter 3:18 The Message

18 Christ himself died for you. And that one death paid for your sins. He was not guilty, but he died for those who are guilty. He did this to bring you all to God. His body was killed, but he was made alive in the spirit. I Peter 3:18 ICB

Wonder 
If I am being honest with myself and God 
and I am willing to hear and absorb the truth He presents to me 
through His words in the Bible
I will come to worship
because He is amazing and wonderful 
completely beyond all I can imagine and even comprehend
Whatever my circumstances or state
He wants to be known
He wants to be near to me
He wants to bring me near to Him


Deep calls to Deep

This psalm is evidence that I can begin to express and articulate my pain
my anger 
my sadness
my bitterness and discontent
whatever is in the depths
may be cried out
to Him

In any circumstance or state
I can come to Him 
and commune with Him in the depths of my being

Deep calls unto deep

When the pain is prolonged
is intricate and tangled and complex
and has no clear or immediate trajectory of change

I can come again and again to Him to pour out my soul 
to articulate and put into words all that I am feeling and thinking


Talking to Him

Talk to God in the pain
the bewilderment
the loss
the grief
the disappointment
the anger
the sadness

This psalm is given to show us how to pray 
God is near to the crushed 
and the broken
We can cry out to God from the depths of our being
in the depths of our pain 
When my heart is overwhelmed
lead me to the rock that is higher than I Psalm 61:2 KJV


Psalm 61:2Holman Christian Standard Bible (HCSB)


2 I call to You from the ends of the earth
when my heart is without strength.
Lead me to a rock that is high above me,

He is that rock
that alone is secure and unchanging
all else is transitory and fleeting


Trust

I pray to God—my life a prayer—
    and wait for what he’ll say and do.
My life’s on the line before God, my Lord,
    waiting and watching till morning,
    waiting and watching till morning. Psalm 130:5-6 

It is a very painful to truth to realize
      that I am completely powerless
      to effect deep lasting change 
     and transformation
     in myself or any one else 


my life a prayer


what else is there but to keep baring my soul to God
to keep talking with Him
to be in relationship with Him

to trust Him to work his amazing work

in ways I cannot now see or understand now

but I can know Him
in the midst 

not watching what is distressing me
but watching for Him
waiting for Him to do what I cannot

What He is doing is inviting me into a relationship with Him
right here and now
where I am today

Weeping may endure for a night
but joy comes in the morning. Psalm 30:5 KJV

5 His anger lasts only a moment.
    But his kindness lasts for a lifetime.
Crying may last for a night.
    But joy comes in the morning.
Psalm 30:5 ICB

those who trust in Him are not put to shame in the end

Hope


O Israel, wait and watch for God—
    with God’s arrival comes love,
    with God’s arrival comes generous redemption.
No doubt about it—he’ll redeem Israel,
    buy back Israel from captivity to sin. Psalm 130: 7-8

Yes, Lord, 
help me to watch for you
you want to redeem and recover
you want to free me from all that I cannot free myself 
you want to give me Yourself

with your arrival comes love into the depths of my being
and through me into this situation 
this relationship

changing me from the inside out

Praise you O Lord!














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